Decided to stop the previous one, cos absolutely have no heart to write, knowing most of the posts are only written when I’m down and sad.

Time to move on to 4th Gear and charge up my life. And it’s to put down into writing, to record this journey after discovering this huge bit of myself… what will be the changes if i base truly on my heart.

As a matter of fact, there’s a huge blooper in my love life, but I’m doing whatever I can and want, to salvage it. Nonetheless… i believe, the best way is to chant, and keep allevating my life… at the same time to send so much prayers for him that everything coming up for him, will be all towards the right direction. He’s the one, who triggered me to be real… and that i’ve been decieving myself… being untrue to myself. This darkness so deep that… I don’t even realize…

I’ll be sharing on very personal matters. Esp with regards to book reviews, movie reviews, members’ growth, R5FD growth, Ghl chapter growth, and my dreams, challenges and not to forget, Sensei.

Have to record whatever I need to record for future… I’ve missed out recording for almost 1.5 years…