Kinda distracted with other focuses with this EDA module that I’m taking. I’m learning new stuffs every lesson, and am keen to attend class!

Well, I’m always quite enthusiastic with classes… Lol…

I kinda like summer term. Well, people might comment that I have no life, but I do like the intensity and focus of 1 module for 5 weeks. I believe I’ll prefer such arrangements instead of cramming 5 mods over 4 months. Instead, 1 per month seems like a better idea.

I’m so fortunate… to have nice profs all these while. Somehow, there people who do have negative feedback on some profs… but I truly have nothing except appreciation for them.

Somehow, they always have this agenda, of wanting to enlighten us on something more in depth… And I appreciate this gesture. That’s what educators are supposed to do, isn’t it?

However, the only thing that is a pity, is that they barely read or know about Daisaku Ikeda…

Sometimes the ongoing problems that are discussed in class can be so cyclical, everyone just decide that things can barely be improved. However, Sensei is truly far sighted. Sometimes when I read his stuffs, can deeply understand his hope and vision for future…and that a better future is indeed possible… If, we bring humanism into the center stage.

And I’m glad I managed to be involved in this project that revolves around poverty and income distribution…

I realize sometimes I can be quite a communist. Must thwart my mentality a bit… I have to acknowledge there must be some kind inequality in the society, to allow for some level of competition so as to trigger growth for the state, as a whole.

But the concern that I have, is the dignity of the poor. Somehow their value as humans, are judged by their income.

I don’t deny we need the rich to create jobs…for the poor. But have all people been respected as human beings in the first place?

There’s always this natural tendency of human (in Buddhism, we simply call it fundamental darkness), egotism and arrogance, to enjoy putting people down from the top. And because everyone don’t check on themselves, they gradually become less appreciative, and ignore the fact that they need the poor to help them in their business for overall economy growth too! I mean, in that sense, both classes, including the middle, should appreciate each other as people, contributing, rather than, reducing each to simple clusters through generalization and labels.

I understand why Sensei emphasizes so much on the importance of Economics. There have been few occasions I almost want to take up Econs as 2nd major… but I have to constantly remind myself that I really can’t do Maths… NOT that I’m good with English (just look at the way I’m expressing myself… with all the blatant grammar errors), but compared with English, my Maths is a goner.

I enjoyed my previous ICC class too, and learned a lot of stuffs as well. And here I am, enjoying my EDA class as well. I feel so fortunate sometimes, that I get to enjoy lessons so much.

But the fact is, contrary to many in the academia, enjoying and loving lessons don’t correlate to doing well.

I’m worried that I can’t score for this. SIMPLY because… this is the first module that is very dependent on analysis and criticism… something that I’m horrible at.

The final exam takes up 50% of the overall grade, THE FIRST TIME in SMU with the highest final exam grade… Yet this isn’t the scariest part… I only have 1 hour to plan, and 10 minutes to type and submit the answer. 10 minutes! To determine my fate for this module.

Isn’t that too fast?

I mean, 10 Minutes…, sometimes I take longer than that to successfully poo.

Well, besides that, I’m totally fine with everything.

In fact, I think for my uni life, I enjoy lessons to the fullest… it’s the preparations that kills…… *stares at the readings…*

Whineee…