“There is no way that all of you, who chant daimoku to the Gohonzon and earnestly strive for kosen-rufu, will fail to become happy. You will not only enjoy happiness in this lifetime, but eternally throughout the three existences of past, present, and future.

“Real life, however, is filled with an unending series of problems, including such things as financial troubles, sickness, and family disharmony. But even though, at such times, your circumstances may seem unfortunate on the surface, if you keep chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo throughout, you will definitely be able to transform all that is negative into something positive in accord with the Buddhist principle of ‘changing poison into medicine.’ You can ride out every difficulty, turning it into an opportunity for growth. In this sense, it can be said that, on a fundamental level, you have already won.

“Your life could be likened to a play. You may be performing the role of someone suffering right now, but the play is certain to have a happy and triumphant ending.
There is no way that it could conclude in misery. You will be able to enjoy happiness in lifetime after lifetime. You will be able to win eternally. So you have nothing to worry about.” Ikeda Sensei

Actually, the environment is just a reflection of our own life. And in order to change the environment, must first change oneself, then the chain effect will start. This applies to all places u have problems with. And it’s the only formula to change environment from bad to good or good to bad.

Linmei knows her onei is working very hard to keep things in check for the chalet, but work hard with no heart, will ultimately be reflected on that day one. (Meaning i have to do some reflection too) Then everything will be just do for people to see… which is exactly like mum, isn’t it?

This battle is not a one off thing… and holding an event doesn’t prove anything of the family thingie that u wanna portray, cos it’s already not reflected in our daily life, how u expect it to change anything… esp when our dear papa is still the same pattern, the root of the problem.

If u see it deeply, this whole thing is just reflecting ur innate fundamental darkness… The anger, the hatred, the unhappiness… and all these are simply functions to obstruct u to continue waging this battle, truly with your heart. I mean, even simply making her happy her is very difficult for u… how u expect this family can be kept together? Ultimately, it is the heart that is most important… whatever we are doing is pretty much on the surface… and whether she feels or not, depends on our hearts.

I’m not saying all these cos’ I’m saintly, cos I have the same feeling as you. Just that I have to quickly recognize that all these are the constant mini battles that I have to fight with myself to not produce any negative feelings towards somebody that I should and want to love. And this is… Human Revolution.

If I can’t do my own Human Revolution, how can I expect anyone in the family to do theirs?

I should be intensively chanting though… but I stopped cos was distracted with the module that I was doing. Super bad. But I truly realize the power of Daimoku then, how things did change the moment I was determined and start chanting for it.

But of course, now I have to restart again.

It is an ongoing battle… and we must continue to fight till the battle is won. Along the way, can be pissed, cheesed, can’t be bothered, etc etc… but must quickly deal with them, before they penetrate into you and take over.

I don’t wish to sound like I’m preaching here…but I think u are pretty aware of oneness of self and environment.

Why work is like that and why they are like that, is a reflection of u as their leader… It’s the same in Gakkai ma… if I no heart to participate in a campaign, my juniors will also be in the same rhythm.

Same goes for family, why is it like this now, cos we haven’t been doing anything to change anything when the problem at its scale was small.. but over time, it got big and exploded. So the amt of effort we have to put is, is to cover the years of combination of small small and big big problems… so we need to be patient… I’m lazy by nature… and prefer alot of short cuts, and usually I am capable of finding the shortcuts in any problems or situation I need to solve. And trust me, there’s none for this. And, so we can only choose the slow and steady mood.

The fundamental attitude towards her must change… if not, if we let them (you know who) see through us, we have lost. Cos it’ll just prove mum is right to have made whatever her reasons for decision (that she has been telling them) right.

And I don’t wish to be sarcastic to them. In fact, would like to be sincere to them. I don’t know why… but sarcasm would be behaving exactly like mum in situations when she’s in buona vista… And it’s just not right… cos it’s too convenient to blame them, for our predicament. It is family’s karma, and our lack of efforts, that cause mum’s life to be so unhappy and hence attract those people into her life. Hence, it is not them, but my fault. It is shitty… cos’ it’s always so much easier to blame other people for our predicament. But oh well… Buddhism & Human Revolution most fundamental unit, is back to self. Once one change, the environment will change.

So cheer up, and don’t be unhappy anymore… anything happen, I carry. (but I no money la, so debts are not included here)